My last few days have been successively shite. But that is only because i took too many drugs on Friday and am still yet to get over it.
At least i've reminded myself never to do uppers ever again because i crash and burn like a motherfucker for at least a week after.
I have however discovered a band i quite like recently. Future Islands. His voice is unusual and it is a little heartfelt/emo which i quite like.
My friend played with warpaint on Friday, which was awsome! I liked warpaint, but i'm only really crazy about 3 of theire songs. I thought my friends band were better. The 2:54 check them out.
Colin is just loose and i have pretty much given up on him as of late. He has his own life now, and i think he hates me.
Anyway. I took my camera out the other day and filmed a few people. This video does however look like i am a little bit obsessed with my ex girlfirend, (the ginge) which i'm not. Just had nothing else to film.
Immunity.
I can't drink Heineken or anymore alcohol for that matter. Jesus. Its such a strange time at the moment. I feel nervous, sad and excited about alot of things. We broke up, again and for the last time. We had a huge argument over me not wanting to go and chant in a yurt which resulted in me being called a fat loser and a killjoy, amongst other nasty and unnecessary things. It chips away at my self esteem which i don't have much of anyway. I knew it would be like that. And each time its like that i lose respect, confidence and love for her, and its reached that point where i just don't care anymore. She said she didn't think that she could be with someone who isn't spiritual. And I'm not. That is just not who i am, and she should have known that. And i don't think i can be with someone who relies on drugs so heavily. Its frustrating and it hurts but its for the best and as soon as i get my money I'm off to the U.S. It's going to be a super adventure and I can't fucking wait.
Fuck You>Fuck Me>Fuck Off.
This morning i threw my reebok classic at the radiator and argued with her, again. It's not being able to know what she wants, what i want, or wether it is worth it when it comes back to this again and again.
We exchanged views in a loud, annoying lesbian way. Which resulted in alot of pushing and the throwing of 2 Korean Ginseng pills into our mountain of clothes, in which they got lost like a brick in a river.
It's hard to remain calm when you're being told time after time how shit you are. I try my best but at times like this it all seems to be retracted and taken away, so it hurts.
Last night i got takeout from Pompoko after i left the studio - i love the tofu chilli don dish they do. Last time we went there i got 'chicken' which diddn't really look/taste that much like Chicken so tofu is a better option.
I began to read Oliver Spleen's book the other night, once i started i found it hard to put down, even though my eyes were just about open. It is called 'Depravakazi' and you can buy it Here
Ciao.
We exchanged views in a loud, annoying lesbian way. Which resulted in alot of pushing and the throwing of 2 Korean Ginseng pills into our mountain of clothes, in which they got lost like a brick in a river.
It's hard to remain calm when you're being told time after time how shit you are. I try my best but at times like this it all seems to be retracted and taken away, so it hurts.
Last night i got takeout from Pompoko after i left the studio - i love the tofu chilli don dish they do. Last time we went there i got 'chicken' which diddn't really look/taste that much like Chicken so tofu is a better option.
I began to read Oliver Spleen's book the other night, once i started i found it hard to put down, even though my eyes were just about open. It is called 'Depravakazi' and you can buy it Here
Ciao.
Go on then
I feel tempted to just stay in this evening and watch some cult classics. Would be pretty good to watch the rest of MILK (About Harvey Milk, the first openly gay man to be elected to public office in California) But i guess i promised so i should stick to it and go out for at least an hour or 3.
I bought a digital drawing pad off ebay 2 days ago and i think that it is the best thing i've ever purchased from ebay. I know this is geeky but, he was such a great seller. The item was literally brand new and was only £24.00 and arrived so fast!
Our trip to seawhites was amazing, you can't beat a day out to the stationary store. Getting £5000 and going to America. G'bye.
I bought a digital drawing pad off ebay 2 days ago and i think that it is the best thing i've ever purchased from ebay. I know this is geeky but, he was such a great seller. The item was literally brand new and was only £24.00 and arrived so fast!
Our trip to seawhites was amazing, you can't beat a day out to the stationary store. Getting £5000 and going to America. G'bye.
No you
Scream would not leave me alone. For days, everywhere i turned he was chasing me in that fucking mask. Finally i managed to knock him out with a scaffolding pole in a derelict pet shop in London behind a rabbit hutch. I ran, and made it as far as the musical lesbian gym before remembering i had to be at toms bar for the club night.
Ha Ha Ha.
I can't describe my love for really bad children's jokes. I've spent the last hour on google searching kids jokes and being most amused. Here are a few i found extra amusing:
Knock, knock
who's there?
Twit2
Twit2 who?
You sound like an owl!
What creature sticks to the bottom of sheep ships ?
Baaa-nacles !
How do you make a tissue dance?
Put a little boogey in it!
What did the water say to the boat?
Nothing, it just waved.
Knock, knock
who's there?
Twit2
Twit2 who?
You sound like an owl!
What creature sticks to the bottom of sheep ships ?
Baaa-nacles !
How do you make a tissue dance?
Put a little boogey in it!
What did the water say to the boat?
Nothing, it just waved.
I'd rather have a ring than a finger.
Sentence of the day. I looked back and thought about how much pizza i ate on the beach. It was so tasty though. I hold my trotters up high and say i was a pig about that.
London was good. Kind of went abit pear shaped, but doesn't everything sometimes? Tonight i ate some skittles as a desert, and whilst doing so, i decided that the best way to consume a skittle would be to suck it until its pleasantly malleable because then when you chew its not so hard on your jaw.
London was good. Kind of went abit pear shaped, but doesn't everything sometimes? Tonight i ate some skittles as a desert, and whilst doing so, i decided that the best way to consume a skittle would be to suck it until its pleasantly malleable because then when you chew its not so hard on your jaw.
Pea head
So i haven't blogged in so long. There has been many funny things i know i should remember and write about but my brain tumor must be growing and therefor my memory is not so good; so i cant remember any of it. and that was a pointless sentence.
Ralph has had the car for over a week, so we have been super lazy. Before the car came into my life, i started to feel alot thinner. and i felt like i was growing muscles. But now (due to the car, not all the blocks of cheese we eat for breakfast) I don't feel as thin and have definately become alot lazier. if that is a word.
Musical instruments are great.
Ralph has had the car for over a week, so we have been super lazy. Before the car came into my life, i started to feel alot thinner. and i felt like i was growing muscles. But now (due to the car, not all the blocks of cheese we eat for breakfast) I don't feel as thin and have definately become alot lazier. if that is a word.
Musical instruments are great.
Tuesday
Today a tramp woman barged past me and called me a 'fucking bitch' she then pushed me into the front of JD sport's window really hard...at first i thought about chasing her and saying 'who you callin' a bitch?' in a kind of Bronx/Ghetto/Beyonce type way...but that's not really me so instead i just scuttled off into the shadows of JD sports, only to look up and see everyone staring at me as the fat blob stomped off into the sunset like a hungry wolf.
Fucking Bitch.
Fucking Bitch.
Bus
So i spent most of the bus ride home wanting to turn around, to see whether or not his face matched his scarily similar Robson Green voice. Luckily he got off before me and he wasn't Robson Green. I then spent the remaining time wanting to strangle a latino slapper who was wearing 3" heels made from black plastic, and about a million fake gold bangles around her wrists, which i wanted to saw off and burn.
TIGHT-s
This is not me.
However. I do own these tights and i did make the mistake of wearing them to work at a traditional old man's pub in five ways.
Shall i quote what got said? yeah. okay.
'I thought you're meant to turn over on a sun bed?'
'where is your other leg?'
'you forgot your other leg!'
'oh look its Heather Mills'
and i think the only other comment was; 'oh she can hear me and she hasn't even taken her helmet off' (i.e hair)
The comments really made me laugh, and i even thought about telling Dan he should do stand up.
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I won £20 on a scratch card and bought £8.44 pounds and pence worth of groceries. Today is great. I went to the doctors about various things. I wanted to ask her if she thought i was a hypochondriac but then i thought, would a hypochondriac actually go to the doctors about being a hypochondriac? HELP ME I'M A HYPOCHONDRIAC. SO no. The highlight of my doctors visit today was definitely watching her type in my notes 'Is not incontinent' If only she had seen me 2 weeks ago pissed out of my face courtesy of tuaca, pissing on Fox's carpet.
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I've been listening to Rhianna - Rude Boy on repeat today since 1pm. The weekend
has been blurry. Involving insane neighbours and friends at war with each other due
to lack of conscious bearings and basic geography skills. These things happen, i just wish they wouldn't
happen to us, or at least without the baseball bats.
On a lighter note we bought an extra large tiger from the spiral charity shop yesterday,we named him Julius. He brings a certain positive feeling to the room. He feels lucky, although i think he is a little bit to big to come to the shop with me to buy a scratch card.
The other day at the pub i did something really, REALLY stupid. Not that this is hardly surprising, as i feel that my undiagnosed brain tumour has increased in size and the effects are having an increased regular effect on my everyday life, but anyway. So i was at the pub - early for once. Pottering around, it got
to midday and i thought 'hmm its quiet, where is everyone' then i realised that i hadn't actually opened the doors and there was a bunch of angry old men stood outside. So i let them in through the side door, they moan for a further 15 minutes about how stupid i am, and i am agreeing trying to make abit of a joke out of it
but one of them just would not shut UP. He is one of those people that feels the need to comment on every single thing you do, and god help if a WOMAN should light a fire in and old mans pub the way she has been shown. Which then prompted another RANT about how to light fires and how i was doing it wrong. Apparently he used to
be married to a porn star or something so i don't really care about what he has to say, he is disgusting. (I'm not saying i wouldn't marry a porn star)
I just whipped myself in the eye with my headphone wire.
has been blurry. Involving insane neighbours and friends at war with each other due
to lack of conscious bearings and basic geography skills. These things happen, i just wish they wouldn't
happen to us, or at least without the baseball bats.
On a lighter note we bought an extra large tiger from the spiral charity shop yesterday,we named him Julius. He brings a certain positive feeling to the room. He feels lucky, although i think he is a little bit to big to come to the shop with me to buy a scratch card.
The other day at the pub i did something really, REALLY stupid. Not that this is hardly surprising, as i feel that my undiagnosed brain tumour has increased in size and the effects are having an increased regular effect on my everyday life, but anyway. So i was at the pub - early for once. Pottering around, it got
to midday and i thought 'hmm its quiet, where is everyone' then i realised that i hadn't actually opened the doors and there was a bunch of angry old men stood outside. So i let them in through the side door, they moan for a further 15 minutes about how stupid i am, and i am agreeing trying to make abit of a joke out of it
but one of them just would not shut UP. He is one of those people that feels the need to comment on every single thing you do, and god help if a WOMAN should light a fire in and old mans pub the way she has been shown. Which then prompted another RANT about how to light fires and how i was doing it wrong. Apparently he used to
be married to a porn star or something so i don't really care about what he has to say, he is disgusting. (I'm not saying i wouldn't marry a porn star)
I just whipped myself in the eye with my headphone wire.
Back to square one, loss of vision round 2.
I was sick of looking like a BO selector character in my reading glasses. All thanks to the twat in specsavers that rushed me and told me i looked good in those RIDICULOUS glasses. So yesterday i decided to pop out the lenses and stick them into my other vintage frames that i got from Berlin last year. Obviously they were a complete different shape and did not fit at all, they stayed put on and off for about 10 minutes until i dropped the D.I.Y contraption and lost a lense inbetween a floor board. So now I'm left with a half hearted wanna-be monacle which to be honest aint gonna cut it.
Last night was unexpected. I spent way too much money, bought scratch cards and lost as usual, danced on a speaker to reminisse with shauna to princess superstar - perfect exceeder, Vic broke the table, but its nothing that no more nails can't fix, Meadow almost cried, i realised i should be spanish and I can't get enough of her.
Last night was unexpected. I spent way too much money, bought scratch cards and lost as usual, danced on a speaker to reminisse with shauna to princess superstar - perfect exceeder, Vic broke the table, but its nothing that no more nails can't fix, Meadow almost cried, i realised i should be spanish and I can't get enough of her.
F10
I'm sick of dreaming about the end of the world and having sex with men. Last night I dreampt that Middlesex uni was for rejects and everyone who went there could not play rugby. There was an endless supply of bottled cola and i mixed ginger beer and orange juice together in my nan's cup. It then went on, Lottie Newth was there and so was my mum. It was the end of the world, the buildings were flying and everything was being sucked back to the earths core...A mixture of things through the ages, dinosaurs victorians and things like that. Everytime i look up what my weird dreams mean, the evil dream book i own tells me some shit answer. Which is usually along the lines of 'someone close to you is going to die/ a death in the family/ you're gonna die. So i stopped refering back to that about a year ago. Seeing as its answer for everything was...'you're gonna die.'
Last night was fun. Me, Bonny and Meadow took JUDE to the Regency tavern (my new favorite place they have ASAHI on tap) then we got food and came home. I need to stop eating so much. Its getting rediculous now. You would think i have never been fed the way i go on. And i definately have put weight on because the bags under my eyes are more promenant and that is because my cheeks have got fatter and i can also tell because I'm getting wrinkles on my wrists from the wrist rolls...sounds like a desert.
Last night was fun. Me, Bonny and Meadow took JUDE to the Regency tavern (my new favorite place they have ASAHI on tap) then we got food and came home. I need to stop eating so much. Its getting rediculous now. You would think i have never been fed the way i go on. And i definately have put weight on because the bags under my eyes are more promenant and that is because my cheeks have got fatter and i can also tell because I'm getting wrinkles on my wrists from the wrist rolls...sounds like a desert.
Ok so I Illegally downloaded Illustrator and have been faffing around. Hmm. I'm not too impressed but hopefully it will improve.
In other news. I passed out and embraced a few minutes of serious amnesia. It was weird. I'm convinced i have a brain tumor now, it would explain my lack of interlect and blurred vision.
In other news. I passed out and embraced a few minutes of serious amnesia. It was weird. I'm convinced i have a brain tumor now, it would explain my lack of interlect and blurred vision.
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