Immunity.

I can't drink Heineken or anymore alcohol for that matter. Jesus. Its such a strange time at the moment. I feel nervous, sad and excited about alot of things. We broke up, again and for the last time. We had a huge argument over me not wanting to go and chant in a yurt which resulted in me being called a fat loser and a killjoy, amongst other nasty and unnecessary things. It chips away at my self esteem which i don't have much of anyway. I knew it would be like that. And each time its like that i lose respect, confidence and love for her, and its reached that point where i just don't care anymore. She said she didn't think that she could be with someone who isn't spiritual. And I'm not. That is just not who i am, and she should have known that. And i don't think i can be with someone who relies on drugs so heavily. Its frustrating and it hurts but its for the best and as soon as i get my money I'm off to the U.S. It's going to be a super adventure and I can't fucking wait.